personage

Hello fellow writers and poets. i have been a writer since I wrote my first novella as a fourth grader. ever since then I have wanted to be a writer and nothing else.
I would have to. I had the project, I had the chance and I blew it big time. I let all of my dreams fall apart becasue being an addict was more imortant than anyhting else. I lost a daughter, My job, countless oppurtunities to get published , and nearly my life.
Now I am just getting it toghether after almost fifteen years of abuse. I am pretty much a constant wreck and in a state of emotional chaos, but I am managing to keep things together. And I don't have to worry about where my next fix is coming from.
Now that I am writing again I have this terrible problem finsishing anything and sending it out to see if anyone would again be interested. I have changed in the way I wrote when there were interested parties. I was optimistic than, my stories still had some happy endings and I thought that there might be one for my life as well.
Instead I have nothing. But in turn I have nothing to lose and a large amount to gain.
I had another child, one I didn't lose and she is my princess, my muse, my everything in life. Right now I do not feel I am worth it, but she is.
Anyway I am concentrating on getting things finsished and would love any feedback. Oh and if anyone has the answers to being human, feel free to share.-