amachristian

It sounds as if this person is going through a great heartache trying to figure out what to do. Especially at such a time as Christmas when everyone 'seems' so joyful.
If I would make a suggestion here, it would mainly be that you have presented this to us as a full package. I mean, you've already laid out the full thought. It would be nice to have your readers do a bit of work on their own as they read. Don't give the full picture, allow readers to create a picture in their own minds.
"The ultimate gift to you is for me to set you free
But this gift I can't give you because I love you so
All the decorations and lights and people seem to be filled with glee
People bustling around you can see their faces glow."

Let me give you an example of what I mean.....

'As I watch you flutter your wings
I am moved to open the door to your cage
my heart stops me in my tracks
though joy is all around, in this I can't engage"

Not that you would want to use the exact words I used here. It might be that I've not even hit on how you want this to sound. I'm just trying to give you the idea of not telling everything up front, but allowing us to discover it within ourselves as we read your words. Also a few type O's.

I did enjoy reading your poem very much and hope what I said here didn't sound harsh. My critique of your poem is only meant to be a constructive thought and may differ from what others readers think.
Thank you!