Rolanda

One day passes,
another one too.
Why do I feel
so angry and blue?

I feel so upset
at the world all the time.
I just wish it could change,
I wish I felt fine.

Sometimes I just lay
alone and I think.
I think about the time
I had my 1st drink.

I think about school
and where I want to go in life.
I'm not good at anything,
I can't deal with the strife.

The mistakes I've made,
I'd do life again.
I'd make it be different
maybe better in the end.

I just can't deal with it,
it tears me up inside.
I feel so stressed out
sometimes I want to die.

I can't really explain
the feelings I feel.
Just believe me it hurts
like a cut that won't heal.

You can't always see it
because it seems so small,
but it's definitely there
causing me to fall.

Fall from the world,
with every wrong that I make.
Getting stuck in a trap
I feel so fake.

I'm not the person
I used to be.
I changed a lot
when I turned 16.

Maybe I'll wake up,
I'll be seven again.
There'll be no more hurt
just me and my friends...

But back to reality,
we go on with our lives.
I deal with the pain
and I try to survive.