02-04-2008, 12:05 AM
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Last Online: 01-31-2012 04:50 PM
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Re: Maritza
i was thinking the same thing about my little girl a couple weeks ago. gone are the toddler giggles and i can no longer fool her with tricks that used to light up her face like a fourth of july nite sky. for a moment, i thought i had lost her. i watched her move from one room to the next, no more can i see tentativeness or furtiveness in her ways. she has a confidence that makes me proud, but causes me to wince knowing it is the first glance of growing up i will see and some of the last of an innocence i hold like a snapshot forever.
her mannerisms are not those of a little girl, but of a lady in waiting of a sort...waiting to be a lady. and i realize that i will not let go, and not only because i cannot. i will not hold her back. But i will also make sure that she is prepared for the day that i cannot be there.
i wonder what things she will confront in life. i wonder what she will learn, what she will love or hate, what she will value...and will she really wait til she's married just because she knows her true value and maybe a little because it would break daddys heart if she didnt. and i realize that it's not time to let go...not for a long time. much to teach her, much to show her about love and life and pain and how to walk on and never quit. the time captured through the collage of her smiles covering my wall is not time lost, but a jewel that makes a diamond look like commoners clay.
I may relinquish bits of my sway over her over the years, but if i did what a father is supposed to do, then no one will ever know our secret. that she will forever live in my mind as a 5 year old whose daddy could do anything. so you see, in reality, i honestly cannot let go.
zaac
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