Spiritual Poems:

[nomadicrhymer]

and Still I Live!

Walls surround me
gyrating grays
pinpoints of madness
prickling my eyes
floating
detached
from earth
no light to spare
wondering nothing
feeling less
grief
like a grave of concrete
breaking my chest
and still I live!

Vaguely remembered
earth splattering
the small coffin
half burying pink and purple flowers
sprinkled by rain
a ray of sun
through the church window
settling on top
tears gathering
falling
I feel them not.
Why cry?
Did she have to die?
and still I live!

Wasted years
of baby laughter
prayers going up
like neatly stacked laundry
some white some gray
who are these people in my house?
a show for this day
impressing whom
with their excessive grief, and
unnecessary outpourings?
She's not their flesh
but one of mine!
Baby cries frozen in time.
and still I live!

Stirring suddenly
I look down
into her face
as she laughs aloud
in baby giggles
and cuddly cheeks
the other one
just like her twin
sorrow retreating
to a side room
momentarily
as light blasts forward
into my mind
swiftly realizing
I have a reason
to still live!

© nomadicrhymer

[MsJacquiiC]

WOW! MS N - I like this poem a lot! It seems once a nod to our Fearless Super Moderator KIM's poem Like A Phoenix AND a nice self-affirming & self-strengthening piece of poetry. A little dark, but mainly an affirmation of having triumphed, swimming free from lifes turmoiled sea of despair.

The Following Text Is Quoted:

...Baby cries frozen in time.
and still I live!...

...as light blasts forward
into my mind
swiftly realizing
I have a reason
to still live!

Triumphant indeed! And yes! I like this one!

One additional comment about form:

The Following Text Is Quoted:

no light to spare
wondering nothing
feeling less
grief
like a grave of concrete

Perhaps you mean "wandering nothing" - as to describe efficiently and effortlessly the one who brings that turmoil: of course he's a wandering nothing!

Great piece MS NOMAD - enjoyed this one!
Thanx for sharing it with us.

Jacquii.

[nomadicrhymer]

Hi Ms. J!

I appreciate the comments and I love your spin on the "wandering nothing!" never thought of that! nice twist there.

I wrote this one a while back dedicated to my little Samantha who passed away from SIDS at 30 days old...and I thank the Lord every day that I had her twin, Mikaella to keep me sane in those days...

Nomad

[Benny]

What a deeply formed work...right out of the depths of your own pain of loss. I cannot tell you how much this poem spoke to me. My greatest fear I have ever owned you have lived out. I admire you.

[zaac]

i was holding my breath in this one...dont know why but it seemed to be a sacred moment.

zaac

[nomadicrhymer]

Thanks Benny and zaac, for commenting...this one is really special to me, although I don't read it much...cause I cry...guess what happened today? zaac, my eyes fell on your signature...and I burst out laughing...so I wipe away my tears....still smiling...thanks!!

NR