TrueBlue

melancholy cigarettes in the rain

seems that i'm smoking melancholy cigarettes
seems that i'm smoking melancholy cigarettes
because that's the way i feel
not a homeless man
i'm not a homeless man
that's just the way i feel
i am
that's the way i feel
oh yeah
oh it rains now
the little girl next to me asks
why do living things have to die?

this unconscious living --
we are so lost in fantasy
it's not so bad to me
life behind screens of deadly sins
escapism
the boy next to me asks
why do dying things have to bleed?
i can't answer
about
this mess
about it all
but i know i've got to see what living is

and why do i sometimes find myself hating everyone
in my solitude?
errant, lost
it's avarice and it's boredom's cost
i really don't feel that way
i really don't feel that way
it's not me
i know
i know myself
but where do these thoughts eventually go?
only the heavens show
what to do
and i will heal spiritually
o, but how can i help you?

i am strong, i will stand
and i'm going to have a fun time
i love the freedom of this western land
i will walk into knowledge that was absent to me
the stars shall guide me tonight one more time
to what i was meant to see

dear heart, speak to me the truth
and tell me i am okay
dear lover, tell me what to do
and please tell me i'm true

i will forgive all sins
i will try
it's true
but i am so weak alone
in this rain
alone
wet

it doesn't matter if i feel sadness
i will go on
hey, hey, hey, that's life, don't they say?
hey, hey, hey, i don't really know about much about anything today
what are these secrets of this life all about?

dance! sing! pray for and love your kin!
there is a such a special divinity in everything
in humanity, in the animal's eye
you can see that sentient love
bring everything

hug! kiss! catch a short ray of bliss!
find the one you can love, and embrace them
in the shine of the sun
let the pain of the past be undone

for you mustn't miss love
isn't there someone?
you mustn't miss love
love it shall grow
isn't there someone?
help love grow
help love grow
into all aspects of your soul

walk into nature
breathe in the open air
walk into city
there will be people there

and
am
i

but
seems that i'm smoking melancholy cigarettes
because i've got some real deep blues
seems that i'm smoking melancholy cigarettes
can't bear the real deep news
can't beat the news



i will be true

i know

PaintedDiary

Dear True,

I am so sorry I missed this and it was not commented on. This is deep, real deep, and unique as in the True Blue only signature from a the many poems of yours that I have read. The title alone deserves attention, and the title and poem are quite memorable; a classic. This delves into many depths and layers of you. me, and life. The execution was brilliant as was the content. You have a style all your own, and you are truly gifted. Have not seen you for a long time, hope all is well, and I know you are continuing to spread your poetic wings. I gave this an excellent rating. Loved it!

Kimberly

Poetic*Freedom

this really is DEEP!!..I mean I feel I can relate to some level..with all the confusion you speak of..and the many questions you have..
..made me think "am I living or am I just goin' through the motions?!"...
..very well done!..made me think!..I like that!..lol..
..